I've found that I am so completely wrapped up in him. He is incredible. Yes just absolutely incredible.
I keep thinking to myself 'Wow, you are so lucky to have this' and its true. Mike is...amazing.
He is the type of guy that puts everyone else first, and as far as I can see he always has been. Knowing this, and knowing that he cares for me...I want to be able to do so much for him. I don't know if he realizes how great he is or how much he means to me.
I suppose it might help if I tell him huh?
The truth: I'm afraid that I'm jumping with my feelings. Which, come on, is very easy for me to do right? The only thing I think is different is this time around he was a good friend before hand. I can honestly say that I did love him, as a friend before. Can love grow quickly from that?
(I'm sure he'd hate me for putting this picture up but I love it lol Booze was involved. His outfit: a costume. The night it all began someone shot this photo)
That brings me to something else I have been thinking about lately. Love and being in love.
When I think back to past relationships where I exchanged the words 'I love you' frequently and believed myself to be 'in love' I question whether I really was or not. Because of this I think that maybe, at least for me, I am only meant to be 'in love' with someone once in my life. Right now, thinking of the two men I used that phrase with I feel that I did love them. I cared for them, they were special so yes I loved them but I wasn't in love with them. Maybe at the time, I thought I was. But it wasn't that forever, for real love.
I'm starting to honestly believe that I will only be in love once. Then I get a little scared because I'm definitely starting to feel strongly for Mike. If I go with what I am saying, and then say that I am 'in love' with him will I really be or is this just another one of those situations?
Right now I don't care. I want to feel what I am feeling entirely and without thought!
Mike is...everything I imagined having and more.
